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October 25th, 2007


09:29 pm - A Horse Walks Into a Bar...
Three down, ten or so to go.

My body does not like magnesium very much.
Current Mood: blahbetter
Current Music: "The Glow," Pt. 2 - The Microphones

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September 10th, 2007


07:16 am
It's been a while...

School is hectic. I'm applying to so many places, it's hard to keep track, and yet it's so unendingly boring.

U Chicago
U Michigan
Boston U
U Wisconsin
NYU
U Mass
Bard
Temple
U Minnesota
Johns Hopkins
Mt. Holyoke
U Pittsburgh

There's the list as it stands now, first five in order of preference.

There has been some fun stuff lately. But that sort of ended wih my mother's declaration that "Happiness is not a priority."

Charming.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious slash sleepy
Current Music: Goodbye to the Mother and the Cove - Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah

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June 21st, 2007


03:00 pm
I feel sick.

College essay needs to be written on the plane.

I never realized that sleeping with someone could be so fantastic though...
Strange awakenings aside, I want to sleep like that always.

Stupid female-ness.
Current Music: We Both Go Down Together - The Decemberists

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June 14th, 2007


02:17 pm
Found this tucked away in my planner:

The ground is hard
Strewn with crystals, too inviting
In my hand that felt like ice, vanishing
Shattered as the harbour melted into the highway
Replaced with white flowers, dear green stretching
The sky falling into the ocean
Orange shadows splitting like glass

It's 2:22, an alright time.

On the 22nd I'm leaving, entirely bitter-sweet of course.
Current Location: Egg
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Emancipation - Helios

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June 4th, 2007


04:36 pm
I'm fairly certain those exams went well. At least English sure did.

It's really odd how much it doesn't feel like the end of the school year. It's like...Either everything went to fast or...Maybe I just don't want this year to come to a close.

Sid is now 14 cm tall! He grew like a beast all weekend and it's really rather grand.

Hopefully there will be more thunderstorms soon...They make me want to do impulsive things, and it's almost at a point where it will be okay to do just that!
Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: The Luckiest Guy on the Lower East Side - The Magnetic Fields

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May 20th, 2007


02:31 pm - This strange plan is random at best...
We raced up the sidewalk twenty thousand million times.
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Current Music: has never been so great.

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May 18th, 2007


04:52 pm - Whayyyy did I just waste time doing this?
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your iTunes library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button once for a new song



Opening Credits:
3月9日ーレミオロメン

Waking Up:
Larry's Coming Back - ...and The Native Hipsters

First Day At School:
C - Dir en Grey

Falling In Love:
Last Night I Dreamed That Somebody Loved Me - The Smiths

Losing Virginity:
Hey Ladies Fans - Ill Mitch

Fight Song:
Abel to Caine - D'espairs Ray

Break up:
Stockholm Love - 2 Skinnee J's

Prom:
Tornado - Jay Chou

Life:
wither thou goest - Palace Music

Mental Breakdown:
Race for the Prize - The Flaming Lips

Driving:
Apple Bomb - Deerhoof

Flashback:
It's Summertime - The Flaming Lips

Getting Back Together:
Quiet - The Smashing Pumpkins

Wedding:
Staralfur - Sigur Rós

Birth of Child:
Modern World - Modern Lovers

Final Battle:
Dragostea Din Tei - O-zone

Death Scene:
Lux Aeterna

Credits:
Present Joys - Alabama Sacred Heart Singers

Sequel Teaser:
Endless Rain - X Japan

Some really work, and others, not quite so much.
Current Mood: hyperhyper
Current Music: Assorted

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May 15th, 2007


11:38 pm - There were five monkeys...
But that's a story for another time.
This is pretty much what school has consisted of lately:
They had sweet loving serx in the zoo. Which is when he he 13whipped out his terrorist exploding device, and thrust it inside of her. The result was horrifying and moist. Her vagina emitted a sound like a foghorn, and he yelled. “FOR GOD! FOR CUNTRY! FOR THE USSR!” He ripped off the jacket of his USSR army uniform and reviled his nipple piercing, one of which was connect to a black wire. The black wire was connected to the deviced around his ballz and lol serx. Then they jumped ina helocopter and did it doggy style with a cayote family, who raised them like their young. The German Shepard, was not pleased, and proceeded to parachute out of the vehilcle, “MEIN KOMPH! MEIN FUUR MOTHER RUSSIA IS BRO’IN OUT MAN! (say no to bro-rape.) It was later discovered that he was Hitler.
In the Bakery, they met Raspuitin, the Mad Monk who was on his honeymoon with Mickey Mouse, and was clothed in a pirate hat and a frilly pink thong, which is historically proven. He then informed (despite the presence of his spouse) Anastasia that he could cure her in his pants. Tim Byrne made an appearance, and then he carved a ‘t’ into a 123456scantily clad women’s dress, and then ran off with his sword(s). The babushka was not pleased. Ich bin depri und su mama tambien. And then Rasputin jumped the Berlin wall and faught Lafayette in outer space. In a galaxy far far away, where they had make-up sex with Chubacca who proceeded to tie them up and whip them until their brains turned into mush and they became delighted zombies.
He was pulled out of his reverie by a soft rumble of thunder, and turned away to step into the comfortingly warm shop, holding the curtain aside for her entry. And then she butt-fucked him with a cucumber and mackerel from the sushi place ‘round THE CORNER.

And this is not a bad thing.

I've been pleasantly confused latley, which is just fine for now.
Tomorrow I hope there are enormous thunderstorms.
Current Mood: cheerfulwarm
Current Music: Barny Google - Billy Jones & Ernest Hare

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May 5th, 2007


10:10 pm - Your Hand in Mine
"Your heart felt good it was drippin' pitch and made of wood
And your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass to me"


There are so many things to be confused about at the moment...

And there's nothing I can impact.

Totally insignificant, but I think I did worse this time around.

And all my teeth are chipping out. Every time I look in the mirror, there are fewer and fewer.
Current Mood: melancholyupset
Current Music: the stars are projectors - Modest Mouse

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March 28th, 2007


10:47 pm
Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

This shit is bananas.
Current Mood: coldclammy
Current Music: We Love You - Miyavi

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March 7th, 2007


04:49 pm
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: the remains of the day - mono

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February 24th, 2007


08:19 pm
HAWAII!

Wooooooo! A fantastic day.
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Current Music: Melancholy (long version) - Kiyoharu

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February 17th, 2007


09:46 am



That made my day.
Current Mood: hornyhorny
Current Music: The IIID Empire - Dir en Grey

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January 27th, 2007


01:55 pm
boku wa ichinen mae america ni itane..
attoiuma
i miss you



<3
atashi mo
maji koishii yo.



KYAAAAA! POND SKATING YESSSS! I love this weather. What a grand thing after the SATs.
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Current Music: dance of the manatee - Fair to Midland

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January 20th, 2007


11:48 am


Well worth the wait. The noise was incredible...
It's nice to be lucky enough to be able to appriciate such things.
My mom yelled "HOLY SHIT!" When it happened and it was all in good fun. Lovely day, isn't it?
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Five Stars and Two Thumbs Up - Danielson

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January 9th, 2007


12:05 am
Damn.
Well maybe things can only go up hill from here?

And more from the calculator...

Standing on the beach he watched the silver waves crash molten into her body
The gulls dipped their wings into the froth and soared into the sun
Feathers black with oil
Dark as her fingertips against the sky
He could barely remember her strength
The days when she had stood smiling in her soft white dress
As spring flowers fell like ash around her feet
The flame in her eyes dwindling under the cold blue sky

With his hand he had scalded her
Reaching out as he watched the moon and the sun meet so far above
Her breath had brushed his hair aside
A whisper muffled in the summer rain
In the wind on the grey shore that caress faded
Leaving her only to cry out to an invisible fog
While all he could do was watch as she pulled the sea into her heart

Beh...
Current Mood: Chilled
Current Music: The CIA is Trying to Kill Me - Non Phixion

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January 4th, 2007


05:03 pm - A very bad day.
Today was not a good day.

I just had a discussion with my father. I doubt it made a difference.
It doesn't matter how much I worry or care because it just makes him guilty.
Something he's been for a while, so why should this bother him anymore?

"If you call Dr. Mann I'll fire him."

Guess he'd really rather not stick around...
Current Mood: scaredscared
Current Music: The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Out to Get Us!

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January 1st, 2007


06:45 pm
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

stolen from dir_en_grey

'nuff said XD

Happy New Year!
Current Mood: anxiousgross
Current Music: Bottom of Death Valley - Dir en Grey

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December 24th, 2006


11:16 am
愛してるよ。
やめられない
だからごめんなさい

Well, Kevin vomiting a ridiculous amount was sort of...I don't know, the icing on the cake. (ew)
I'm just really worried about Uncle Bobo and my Dad and then to have Kevin get really sick all of a sudden.
It really scared me.

I don't know...

Being so aware of everyone's vulnerability really sucks.

でもありがとう久仁寛くん
Current Mood: sadupset
Current Music: Green Grass of Tunnel - múm

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December 22nd, 2006


01:58 pm
他所に出会いたい
笑って、朝日を掴まる
乍ら一人で君は叫んで
「やめなさい!」
唖に叫んでる知てたの?
楽しい?
この人形と遊ぶ

一緒に舞わてる
目の前
足は焦がされて
灰と骨
黒い宝石は降ってる

僕達の焼死体
このきれい原野で
遣ってる
精子とサリヴァ
リザヴェタのレイプ
一緒に行きたいの?
この寝台の葉に


まいいや〜
何でもできない
Time for a nice hot shower.
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: G.D.S - Dir en Grey

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